My internet connection is rather cranky at the moment.. and so is my mood.. =x

Some one just irritated me off totally. Maybe I'm not obvious enough when I am pissed off or getting a little fed up.. So people can't interpret anything from the look on my face. As they say, the eyes are the window to your soul. Look into my eyes as we speak and you will know what I feeling (almost).

So, I'm in the midst of my prelim exam period and of course, what do people do when their exams are nearing? They study right? And this friend of mine had to ask me out not just once, twice, but three times! Okay, usually will just reply.. "Can't, I'll be studying" or something along that line. (note: of course I do not do that to all my friends! Friends whom I know I will spend quality time with, are all the more welcome to ask me out, if time permits) But apparently this person asks me to go chillax with him and probably take a break by going to a movie! Okay, firstly, we just knew each other. I'm not even sure if i can click well with you. What if i agreed, and have nothing to say to you during our outing! My time will be wasted! Not only I am not spending my time productively, I bet I would also be wondering what time I can get back home! Okay, up to this point, people may be wondering why am I acting so snobbish (got people ask you out you should be happy already! Still come here complain!?!) Of course I am happy that people are asking me out. But in the event that I say no, I can't, at least be more gentlemanly and understand that there are several reasons as to why I rejected right.

Apparantly this person doesn't. Okay, maybe his perception of exams are different from mine. Yes, I understand that in poly, mugging 1 week before the exam may still yield you high grades. But not for uol or any other universities (I presume). Most people from uol at this point of time, are usually pretty stressed out and experiencing information overload. Maybe the person doesn't understand this point. But, know what he said? He said "oooh, You're from uni, I was from poly, so can't go out lor" Like, seriously! How unreasonable can one get. First, you misunderstood me. Second, you make me out to me someone i am not.

And yes, I am pissed off by this. Not by the fact that he asked me out many times.. but by the fact that he assume whatever I said in his own context. omg. Really wanna bash him. But, I was thinking, since he already have the impression of me being like that, might as ignore him already. But no, he continued by saying "Uni students can't go out with poly grads hor". Can someone spell childish? Seriously, I contemplated explaining things to him, that whatever he thought was just plain assumptions on his side. But ever heard of the saying; "don't explain. your friends don't need explanations. your enemies won't believe in you." ? I just decided to type. Think whatever you want. Bye.

Haha. Anyway, the person has already apologized so all is fine now. I just needed to rant!

Okay, on a lighter note. I think some of my friends know that I have been feeding dogs. I've been doing it since I think last June? Made a couple of dog feeding friends too. And that some of my friends would know about that near serious accident that one of the dogs I've been feeding encountered. Not going to type the whole issue here since A (the dog's initial)'s wounds are healing and apparently there is no internal injury. But seriously, I just wish for her to stop chasing cars. She is young and very active. She has a lot of energy pent-up and usually, domestic dogs overcome this issue by having the opportunity to go for walks and runs with their owners. But stray dogs do not have this luxury. How I wish every time I feed her, I can just put a leash on her and bring her for a run, to make her exhausted so she won't have the tendency to chase cars again, and to be faced with the risk of getting into yet another accident. She is just a dog, she treats this chasing car thing as a game for her; her entertainment.

Seriously, that accident haunted me pretty bad. It happened right before me.. Never have I heard her cry before. And the way she ran back to me on 3 legs with the left hind leg looking like jelly was so scary. She was scared stiff. But no, it was not enough to deter her from chasing cars 2 hours later. -_- We tried tugging her collar whenever she attempts to chase cars, other even tried hitting her and splashing water on her. Apparently she is still so gungho about car chasing.. Anyone has any suggestions or remedies that they can share? Thanks in advance!

I was thinking, what do stray dogs usually do? How do they usually spend their day away? Sun sets and night comes, night goes and sun rises. Don't they get bored seeing the same things all over again? So poor thing. =( Morning: Wake up. Nua. Afternoon: Nua. Look for food under the hot sun. Evening: Nua, enjoy the evening breeze, if any. Night: Nua. Wait for dog feeders (if any). Midnight to 4am: NUA NUA NUA. Speaking of which, the weather is so hot now. A and another dog are at the field (By right). When we humans are asked to stand under the hot sun in a field, we complain. Even to stand under the hot sun along the road or whatever, we whine. Stray dogs, do they have a choice? Yes they can go under trees. But the sun is to scorching that the whole field will be so hot. They eat leftover food or normal dog biscuits, dogs with proper homes eat atas food and sometimes even have a meal specially whipped up for them. They sleep on roads, cement, concrete, field, while the latter sleep on their own bed, cushion, and even their owners' bed. Dogs with proper homes have tons of toys to keep them company (Provided they have responsible owners who truly care about their welfare), while the poor stray dogs have probably flies, cockroaches, rats and worms for company. They get to whine to no one, get pats and scratches from no one, do not take baths, do not brush teeth, and some may be even subjected to bullying from strangers. The weakest usually die of hunger and the ones that live are really strong.

One disadvantage of feeding dogs is the relationship that you form with them. Some stray dogs are afraid of humans and will not touch the food unless you walk away. There is no opportunity for bonding, not that it's necessary, as the main aim is to provide them with food, so it isn't a problem. Other dogs, are damn friendly, allows you to pat them and sayang them. Licks your hand and legs whenever they see you. Run to you when they see you from afar and jumps on you so that you catch their 2 front legs and dance with them. You really see no reason not to reciprocate by giving her pats and scratches. But every time when you leave the scene, she will be chasing your vehicle, with eyes telling you "pls don't leave, play with me". Okay, maybe she doesn't mean that, hahaha. But still, the sight of the dog chasing you when you're driving away. It really hurts. What we would do is to usually pick up the speed so that she can't catch up and stops to catch her breath. Seems so heartless but what to do?

okay. I think to be able to continue with my dog feeding, I must learn to no longer form close relationships with dogs le.. But of course, my relationship with Antelope has began and I'm not so mean to let it end. One thing is that, you won't know what if one day you go back and there is no sign of her.. What if one day she gets adopted? - which is a good thing actually. What if one day she leaves? Trying not to be too negative here, just being realistic.. I have strong emotions with regards to pets.. that's just the way I am. When my darling ("v") wilbert ("v") passed away 5 years back, I grieved and mourned everyday and night. Even thinking about him at this moment gets me all teary and nose-blocked.

Apologise for this emotional post. Frustration at the beginning and sadness at the end. I haven't done any studying today. Should I just let today be my off-day?

Happy! Have been feeding the stray dog quite regularly (or so I think) these few weeks. 20th September, 2nd October, 6th October. He is less wary of me already, beginning to come closer to me le.. =) However, he has no friends with him.. Always alone, lying down, slacking.. Wonder how long has it been since his last bark? I always ask Edmund "Eh, everytime we see him his nose is closed, never bark, never smile.. you think he got bad breath? =X

Hmm, anyway, my subject guides are finally on their way to Singapore!



Woo Woo~

Went to Airport's NTUC to redeem something for my mother.. Xiuping accompanied me too. We ended up shopping for tidbits.. and boy did we buy a LOT of tidbits! I bought Jagabee and Jack N Jill Unagi potato chips! Because Edmund has always been a fan of unagi! + other stuff which I usually like! WOooWooo~~ So, we ended up with 2 plastic bags each.. and we took a bus from Airport to Tanah Merah. o.m.g from the point I stepped into the NTUC to the point I got home, it was the most aunty-ish i ever felt. Especially with my mom's big pot in the huge plastic bag........... T_T But it was very funny laughing at ourselves though. hahaha

On 6th October (yesterday), we went for makan! at Chomp Pang Nasi Lemak! My first time there! Before that, we headed to Yishun 618 de FISH SHOP! Weeee~~~ I love to go to fish shops..! Den, we drove up to Chomp Pang.. The Nasi Lemak quite nice sia, but one thing I don't like are the cats there! Someone got the tendency to throw food at stray cats for them to eat lor. Yes you can, but please throw further away la. Someone knows i'm so scared of cats still wanna let them be near me. Urgh.

So, today is my "off day". But I got things to do! I got to bathe Gilbert! Arggh, he will hate me more lor... Every time i wanna get him to the toilet, it will always be an unpleasant experience for him. =(

By the way, update on my fish water! The Ammonia has gone down to 0mg/l after hitting a 3mg/l last few days! =) and the Nitrite and Nitrate has peaked! Nitrite is BLOODY RED lor. SO RED THAT I CANNOT EVEN FIND THE COLOUR ON THE SCALE! Better drop soon! PATIENCE! One day I will draw a chart on the readings. =)

ok, on a different note, wanna talk about something generic. Sometimes I don't know why I can be so persistant on things and make firm decisions/be stubborn. But why does it always work for most cases but not another? I've got so many questions, but I don't feel like typing all my problems out on a computer.. Maybe will do a locked post (is there such a thing for blogger????) sometime soon. BAH.

Woke up at 11+ today. SO LATE SIA!

We went to feed doggies yesterday. We took some chicken bones from Kuey mee auntie and feed the beloved dogs!

I made a stupid mistake lah, buy beef dog food for them. they dont like lah, they only like chicken dog biscuits and real chicken bone/meat.

So yesterday we bought our bag-full of chicken bones over.. and we saw so many of them.. think in total about 15 ba.. i never really go and count.. I just like tt see..

I think got 2 main groups.. 1 adult group and 1 puppy group. Really damn cute.. once i got off the lorry with the bones, they came towards me liao.. Sense of smell so strong.. Last time see me run away, now see me run to me. hahah..

I think our happiest times is during dog feeding sessions.. hehe.. looking at all the bao bei dogs eating the food, so happy..

Okay lah, gotta go and bathe and try to study liao.. must keep up my motivation!!

I blogged on Sunday night tt i wanna study avg 5 hours per day, MONDAY itself i already study 3.5 hours only! Sian lor.. PZ please keep to ur words !!